One Step Closer to God

I have realized deep within my being in these wee morning hours I feel a feeling of deep sorrow and tears begin to fill my eyes. In my head silently I think of Jesus Christ and of God and cry out from within hear me oh Lord and I know for certain he hears me. And I know when the storms have subsided \, and the currents have calmed I will once again see it was the appeal to God that has kept me. That has assisted me through the storms the challenges. 

You know I always felt that my being held its own cup of tea just for me. I was going to savor the flavor. Looking for that silver lining in the clouds it just had to be there, or so I thought. What a trip I have been on from the time of my birth; not even I could have known or all it would have played out. 

Eyes that once only sought beauty. Believing that beauty is found, in the eye of the beholder, and now what do my eyes see? The beauty that is beneath the overcast the fog that at times lingers a little longer than I like, or the beauty that is discovered when tears are like falling rain, or the sound of one single heartbeat, the joy of being alive discovering that sorrow will give. Recognizing, at times a heart stays broken, it seems too long. Grief can tug at my soul as joy fills my feet to dance. 

No matter what I may recall when I look back over the years. The many trials and challenges I’ve journeyed I recognize that God has always been there. There was a time when I would wonder what if anything I was to discover to learn, to gain, to understand. The beauty of growth that seem to develop with a new level of understanding.

 I can say with my journey the different trials over the years always got me a step closer to God. Because of such I wouldn’t change a thing. I believe still that beauty can been seen in the eyes of the beholder. 

Bluebirdsk©1/9/2024 Susan Knowlen